You've all pretty much figured out I'm a confident person if you've read these posts. I don't have an issue making my case or wants known, I don't resign from responsibility easily and I pretty much am a control freak in all things on this planet that I can possibly control and some things I shouldn't. I've also blogged about my belief in being right.
What if I'm wrong?
Decisions made at forks in the road can have quite dire effects. Take the wrong path and end up god knows where. I have been very lucky in my life that each fork has ended up in a better place. If there was any chance it wasn't going to end up that way, a big dose of luck kicked in and made it right. Buying and selling houses or cars, having kids, moving states, investments, changing jobs, or getting married. They all worked fine! Is that good luck or good management? Is it a function of me being right or just dumb luck and I was wrong the entire time! How can I not consider this may well be the case and that any future decisions could be so fucked up my luck just throws its hands in the air and walks off talking back to me over it's should that I'm on my own now! I'm finding myself more and more paralyzed by this thought but forge ahead in "doing things" and "getting things done", "being a doer" to disguise the fact.
Maybe its time for me to just sit and let others make my mind up? Run an ad in the jobs section "Position Vacant - Decision Maker. Previous experience unnecessary as we have no good yardstick to measure you against".The good side of that is that if it works, I gain. Whatever the decision was, I didn't have the stress about knowing if its right or wrong, just the benefit of it's outcome. The bad side that if it doesn't work out, blaming my newly engaged decision maker is fruitless and all I can do it sack them. I'm leaving the decision regarding getting a decision maker to the decision maker I hire if I decide to hire a decision maker.
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